YOUTUBE INSECURITY | Carmen.

                                                             Hello my besties,
today I wanted to share with you a little personal thing… like if I’m talking
to my friends.
I really thought about opening a youtube channel for so long
and now that I have… sometimes I feel quite weird about the all youtube thing.
I did say in my first video that I waited so long to upload
 because of one of my
biggest fears… BE JUDGED by other people… and that fear is still there
even though my confidence has increased and I’m very
happy about it.
Sometimes I do feel a little insecure…
insecure about myself and about my videos of course.
I’m such a perfectionist and sometimes when I think about a video to film
I picture it in my mind in a specific way and the most of the times it
never comes out the way I imagined it.
And to me that’s so frustrating, because of course you need the
right camera, the perfect background ecc
 
But… everytime I upload a new video and I’m exited about…
everytime I feel insecure.
I’m a big youtuber addicted and I follow hundreds of people who like me,
make videos and love doing it.
And everytime… like everytime, they look so perfect to me while I’m not.
I have the horrible feeling that my videos are not so good as their.
Of course I love so much Youtube and of course I don’t want to QUIT
or anything like that…I just want to be who I am
with all my flaws and everything, and be noticed for this.
Thank you so much for “listening” to me 🙂
I feel so much better now that I’ve spit that out…
-C-
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SUMMER 2017 !!! Sardinia

Hi everyone!

So yeah, I’m just back from a beautiful and relaxing vacation in Sardinia, Italy. Have you ever been there? I used to every year when I was little because my mum’s from there and since my grandma’s departure

I didn’t want to come over and stay for a while.

But this year I did, after 8 years, and I couldn’t be happier! I had the chance to visit a lot of relatives I didn’t visit in years and to enjoy every minute I could … can you imagine how lovely it is?

Here some snaps I took at the beach… and that you can easily find on my INSTAGRAM page if you’d like to ^^   carmen.youtube

I took some photos when I was there and even thou I have a lot of issues with my body and my confidence, I wanted to try and get over it so for the first time I uploaded pictures of my wearing a swimsuit… hallelujah!!

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I absolutely loved to get lost while snorkeling in deep water and pointing at fishes and corals… unfortunately I couldn’t manage to take pictures underwater, that’s so sad… I know, I know…

I finally had the chance to relax and escape a little bit from my reality, from my problems and my job… and let me just say that it was great! But now that I’m back I am buzzing!!! I can’t wait to film fashion videos and upload them on my youtube channel, I can’t wait to write blog posts and go back to my fashion school and my job.

 

I’m going to upload a video about my vacation outfits in a couple of days,

so if you don’t want to miss it go to my channel and subscribe, link’s down below.

MY YOUTUBE CHANNEL

And what about you? What did you do this summer?

LET ME KNOW !!

Hope to hear from you very soon, have a nice day!

-C-

 

THE COURAGE TO LAUGH

Hi everyone,

I totally missed writing in this little spot of mine.

So today I’m aiming to try and explain this blog post… THE COURAGE TO LAUGH and what I do now, during my amazing vacation here in Sardinia, Italy, to get rid of this feelings.

I don’t know about you all, but sometimes I get just a little tiny bit overwhelmed by my emotions and, since I am a very emotional and sensitive girl (sadly), I find very difficult to shake this feelings off of me and, what I do instead of a nice good old cry, is to grab my iPod and listen to music or hang out for a walk.

Everyone has issues, important or less important and the main thing is to understand how much the problem can affect our lives and react to it, the best way possible, asking or not for help (it doesn’t really matter).

And then there’s me… for no reason, sometimes, I get overwhelmed by emotions, panic and anxiety.

I feel no shame sharing this thing with you, because is a part of me and seriousely, I’m working on it, because I have to ! I want to improve myself, I always put everyone before me… their lives, their feelings, their problems, their everything ! BUT WHAT ABOUT ME ? I keep it all deep inside and that’s not right.

I have to respect myself and care a little bit more about me,  so I’m going to laugh more ! I’m going to grow up a bit and try to react to waves of panic or axiety with a laugh, to be more grateful of what I got from life, to be happier and to learn to let go some things I don’t need in my life.

Laughter requires courage and commitment, the strenght to be positive and happier.

There, another introspective post on my blog… how wonderful !

Have a nice day everyone and I’ll see you very soon!

-C-

 

 

MY RELAX ROUTINE

Hei everyone,

How are you all doing?

Today I want to share with you my RELAX ROUTINE or otherwise known as my pamper routine, which I usually do on Sundays or when I have a little bit more time to spend for myself.

My first step is to light a candle and make my room or house comfy and cozy, to clear my mind.

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I love very sweet scents, especially vanilla and Christmassy ones.

Then I remove makeup and apply a face mask to clean it up and detox from smog and impurities.

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I like to blend it with a flat brush because it makes me feel like I’m in a SPA relaxing my mind and body.

After I washed off the mask I like to apply a tonic and a face cream to keep my skin hydrated, smooth and soft.

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Step four is a nice and cheeky hot bath, which I run even during summer (I am a weirdo, I know!!)

Together with my bath I like to sip a hot beverage (usually tea). I’m such a tea person and (of course) I really enjoy sweet tea, like vanilla ones, but I like so much spicy ones as well; actually in love with chai tea ! Yes, I know, what a cliché: hot bath with a hot drink ! 🙂

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Another passage I do is to apply nail polish while listening to music and maybe, dance a little bit, (basically doing silly moves).

I love this bit where you just relax listening to music or reading a nice book, where you just evade from quotidianity and everyday problems, it’s absolutely the best thing ever!

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So yeah, this is my relaxing routine, of course I uploaded a video about it on my YOUTUBE CHANNEL (link down here) you really shouldn’t miss it 😉

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Thank you so much for reading and of course leave me your OPINIONS, I do really appreciate them!

C.

 

SKIN ESSENTIALS BEACH EDITION SUMMER 2017

Hey lovelies,

today’s blog post is dedicated to skin protection during summer days at the beach, basically my essentials.

The main problem during summer is dehydration so I have here a selection of products that you can bring with you to the beach to prevent it and that I love so much. Of course is very important to drink water to keep your body and skin hydrated, it’s a must so, if you’re like me and you forget to drink very often, try and eat a lot of fruit like melons, watermelons, pineapple, grapes and coconut.

To start, it’s very important to protect your eyes… so the first item I shove in my beach bag is a pair of sunglasses, of course.

Afterwards I usually apply my Sun Care cream SPF 30 or, in this case SPF20, to protect my skin from the sun because I really enjoy long walks along the seaside and I don’t want to get a bad sunburn, so this cream is my bestfriend… literally !

Next step for me is to keep my lips and hair hydrated and protected from the heat, so I always bring with me argan oil (that I apply just on tips of my hair) and a valid lipbalm.

Once I am back home and I took a shower, I usually apply the last product: the after sun.

This is the best part ever as this gives my skin a very pleasent and fresh sensation and it makes it smooth and very soft.

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So these are my beach essentials, I really hope this is useful and remember to

check my YOUTUBE CHANNEL out if you’d like to and SUBSCRIBE

 to never miss a video, link’s down here.

MY CHANNEL

Thank you so much for reading and I will see you super super soon!

C.

 

BODY SHAMING ISSUES

Hi everyone,

so this isn’t a very nice blog post for me to write and share, still I’m doing it because I want to talk about this problem I have and because I want to try and accept it, move on and never turn back again, even thou it’s not that easy.

I found it difficult talking to a camera, explaining myself and my thoughts, even because I am Italian and sometimes I can’t explain myself so much but I did, I filmed so Im’ going to talk about my body shaming in a VLOG which is going up today.

I always had this thing… where sometimes I struggle finding trousers or leggings and picking up a skirt or a pair of shorts from my wardrobe is so damn difficult lately.

I don’t like my legs, covered or not, I don’t like them and even thou I’m not that big and people everytime say that I’m fit and that I look okay, in the back of my mind I know that’s a lie.

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This is so effective to me that I always think I HAVE to hide them somehow, by wearing something long, like a long shirt or a blouse.

I do feel ashamed, I know that there’s people who is truly, deeply, suffering for this , and that increases my guilt. That’s horrible, not being able to feel good with your own body, feeling uncomfortable in your own skin.

I want it to stop. I want to move on and not think about it anymore, be able to be free and wear whatever I decide to wear because I want to.

I DON’T WANT MY BODY OR MY BRAIN to AFFECT MY LIFE ANYMORE !

It’s not easy, but I’m trying!

I just want to say LOVE YOURSELF, love yourself because you’re perfect as you are, you’re beautiful as you are, and I’m too.

Just as I am, just like this.

Here’s the link to my channel

MY YOUTUBE CHANNEL

VIDEO WILL BE UP AT 6pm OR 18 ( ROME time), don’t miss it!

Feel free to leave some comments and to SUBSCRIBE if you like to 🙂

C.

NAIL COLOURS | Summer 2017

                                           Ehi everyone,

I love, during summer, wear pastels and light colours on my nails.

I think that they are sophisticated and at the same time, with a bit of tan, stand out giving a touch of elegance.The first is definitely the color of this summer … yellow.I’ve picked one very light by Deborah.

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This is the n. 88 (right).

Another shade that I’m very enjoying is this baby blue from the same brand and it’s the 96 (left).

Other colors that I use most frequently at this time of the year are a baby pink or a nude color like this one from Kiko

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A slightly pearly pink n. 478, that gives brighteness to the nails thanks to tiny little points of light. An amazing color indeed.

Next one is a vibrant pink by Pupa.

I love to wear this shade especially in the evening with a matching lipstick

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Easy and funny to combine you can really play with colors, especially during the summer.

Speaking of playing with colors… what do you think about this amazing nail polish by Collistar?

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Such a great green!!!

What a color… so… summery!

Now you all know I love nail polishes and play with colours, even thou sometimes I find myself stuck with nudes polishes, black and white ones.

Remember that during the summer everything is possible. Summer is lightness, playfulness and a bit of madness. We have to be daring, especially with colors and cosmetics.

I’ll leave my Youtube channel down below so if you are interested you can watch beauty and makup videos and even SUBSCRIBE if you like to!

MY YOUTUBE CHANNEL

Thank you so much for reading, leave a LIKE so I will know you enjoyed and feel free to COMMENT below so I will know what you think about this post!

Enjoy the rest of the day, kisses.

C.

AN INTRODUCTION TO… MYSELF !

Hi everyone!!!

I’m a 27 years old girl from Italy and I’m addicted to fashion and makeup!

I feel like this is my own space to share all my passions, my way to see the world and a little bit of my life.

I filmed a Youtube video introducing myself to the camera and to the YouTube community more than two years ago and… thinking about it now, it’s kind of funny because it took three hours to record a 3 minutes video…yeah !

I was so embarassed and so shy talking to a camera and, even thou Youtube was a super well known reality to me, (I used to watch youtube videos for hours !!), I found very challenging to embrace the commenting of my closest friends and my family.

One of my worst fears was/is to be judged badly by everyone and Youtube really helped me out and get over mean comments and react as best as possible… of course I still have issues boosting my confidence and self awareness but… I try.

My biggest challenge is to be able to ulpoad videos and vlogs speaking in another language, which is English of course, but still I love it because everyday (kind of) I need to push myself to learn something new. That’s not always easy, sometimes infact, I do say things wrong but it’s okay, I love it! 🙂

 

So… I don’t know what else to say, I am another of those girls who are in love with makeup, fashion beauty and lifestyle and that walk everyday with the idea to share everything with you.

This is the link to my channel, in case you want to check it out, I ulpoad every Wednesday and every Sunday at 18.00 / 6pm

MY CHANNEL

 

I hope you’re going to follow me in this journey, thanks for reading and I wish you a nice day! A huge hug.

 

Carmen.